This post marks number 225 since I launched my website and started writing this blog.
225 posts about life.
4 years and 3 months sharing my thoughts with all of you.
Usually the words flow pretty easily.
But this morning I'm coming up blank.
I can't think of a single thing to write about.
Firefly is staring at me impatiently.
Perhaps she can't nap without the clicking of my fingernails against the keyboard.
Or perhaps she's hoping I'll finish soon so she can have a treat (that's the more likely story).
It's Easter Sunday, the boys are still asleep. There's a scavenger hunt waiting for them when they wake up.
The sun is shining, but it's deceiving at only 27 degrees.
I spent a nice afternoon yesterday with some great friends and wrapped the day watching a movie with Jacob (we're working our way through the Marvel series in timeline order).
Life is good overall.
But man what a roller coaster it's been!
I was telling a friend yesterday that it feels like it never stops. We just continue to go around and around and around, through this constant churn of stuff that life throws at us.
Sometimes it's really good stuff.
Like the fact that Jacob's bloodwork has shown normal liver enzyme levels for two months now. He hasn't been normal on both levels ever since he was diagnosed back in 2020.
Or Ryder making scholar athlete and taking first place in both of his events at his track meet last week. Despite the fact that he was battling a severe head cold.
Or a new opportunity for me at work to do something that aligns with my talents in a stronger way.
There's so much to be grateful for in my life.
And yet sometimes it's all just too much.
Too many decisions to make.
Too many people depending on me.
Too many things to do and not enough hours in the day.
Sometimes I worry that my brain will just decide it's done. I've used up its capacity for thinking, and deciding, and making sh*t happen.
So this morning, as I sit here with my coffee and my laptop, struggling to figure out what to write about, I guess I'll just tell it like it is.
Some days we just have to acknowledge that it's all too much.
That our brains are mush.
That we're tired.
That we need a break.
And then the important (and sometimes the hardest) part - we need to actually take one!
Find some time to relax today, even with the Easter celebrations and family gatherings.
Take time to breathe and let your brain rest.
And know that you are enough.
No matter how many things you think you should have done but didn't this week.
No matter how much is waiting for you at work tomorrow morning.
No matter how scary life is right now.
We aren't meant to live life at breakneck speed without stopping.
We are meant to pause and take it all in, the good parts and the bad ones.
So I'm going to finish this sentence, publish this post, and then enjoy another cup of coffee while the house is still quiet.
Hmmm....
Guess I did have something to write about after all.
Happy Easter, friends!
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