I miss the people.
I miss the music.
I miss structure in my life.
I miss the sounds of laughter in my home.
I miss human connection.
I miss really long, goodbye hugs.
I miss ALL the things.
There. I said it. I went there.
It's hitting me really hard this week. The isolation, the quarantines, the negative vibes everywhere from all the political sh*t being spewed around.
Even the gorgeous weather we've had seems to be taunting me.
It's like the universe is saying, "How about I serve you up summer weather in November and then I take away the opportunity to dance with your friends to live music while you enjoy it?"
It's funny actually.
I'm a bit of an introvert, even though some might not realize that about me. I need my alone time. I need the quiet to rest and recharge.
But holy crap people, I think I've had enough of that for awhile!
On my run yesterday, I passed this tree. Just a couple of weeks ago, it was bright and vibrant, its leaves a fiery red.
Now it's barren, sad and empty.
I'm guessing a lot of you feel this way too. It's hard to admit and say it out loud, but we're all going through it.
And heading into winter, when it chooses to come, will make it even harder.
I hope you all have an outlet. This blog is my outlet. It's my therapy sometimes. And today I needed a therapy session.
Sometimes we need to sit in our feelings and acknowledge them. Really let them have their moment. Feel all the feels.
I know this shall pass.
I know I will find a new job and things will smooth out in the coming months.
I know that there will come a time when I can surround myself with people again and have those hugs I so dearly miss.
But for today, I'm just letting life be the sh*t show that it is right now.
I'm heading out for my run shortly and when I pass that tree, I'm going to give it a knowing smile, nod my head and say, "Me too! Yep, I feel it. It all sucks!"
Wherever you are today, whatever you are feeling, it's okay.
Life isn't always easy. And we shouldn't pretend that it is when it really isn't.
Thanks for listening, friends.
It just needed to be said.
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